“I will give you treasures from dark places and hidden stockpiles. Then you will know that I, the LORD God of Israel, have called you by name.” (Isaiah 45:3 GW)
What good is treasure discovered, yet never shared.
If you’ve ever found yourself in a dark place… I hope you will grab hold of the unmatched gems of his word with me, and break yourself free from whatever imprisons you.
I exhaust myself, running in circles… trying to earn righteousness by works and deeds. Looking for worth and purpose in a life that I’ve already professed to be (symbolically) dead to. While the life I should now live (by faith) in Christ is, I know, life to its fullest. This new life, which compared to any other, exists no similar fulfillment or freedom.
Why then… are we still at times, feeling like the only option is to give up? Left feeling empty, all the while doing or being what we believe we should be doing or being?
Why then… do we constantly question our existence and purpose if it seems we are not being validated by others, ourselves, or the world in general?
Maybe the reason, at times, we dare to consider a better escape from this life, is because we’re trying to live the wrong life.
Galatians 2:20-21 says, “‘My old identity has been co-crucified with Messiah and no longer lives; for the nails of his cross crucified me with him. And now the essence of this new life is no longer mine, for the Anointed One lives his life through me— we live in union as one! My new life is empowered by the faith of the Son of God who loves me so much that he gave himself for me, and dispenses his life into mine! ‘So that is why I don’t view God’s grace as something minor or peripheral. For if keeping the law could release God’s righteousness to us, the Anointed One would have died for nothing.’” (TPT)
You see, when I took a vow to surrender my heart and soul to Jesus, I gave full permission for him to guide my life and all its desires. I vowed to follow him all my remaining days, with no exceptions and no turning back. I vowed to give up my life to be used as his willing vessel and shining light of love, peace, power, and glory to a desperate world.
I proclaimed that I would wholeheartedly give my own life to serve him. I made no such promise as to serve others for the benefit of my own pride, to gain elsewhere the love that only comes from the father, or to celebrate my own accomplishments and label them as “purpose”.
I didn’t sign up for temporary internship. I signed up for eternal discipleship.
I made a vow… because of what Jesus Christ did for me. So then, in light of this revelation… I will re-commit to be the person who always shows up, sometimes without an invitation. The person who offers all they have, with nothing in expectation. The person who never ceases to offer their heart, regardless of the risk of being wounded.
In all honesty, our true mission has very little (if any) to do with us individually. As the total body of Christ, we are created in his very image to reflect his magnificence to others.
Serving and ministering cannot simply be an extension of my false need for justification. It must be something completely selfless and out of pure humility, honor, and gratitude for the savior of my lost, hopeless soul without Jesus as my guiding light.
Jesus. My guiding light.
This is how I find treasures in dark places.
This how I want to live… over and above the death of my old identity. I want to live for him in a big way. I vow to keep pressing on and keep going big. Until it’s time to go home.